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luke.park -> fear of failure (Apr. 9 2006 16:11:17)
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hola todos,
i was undergoing a questionnaire from my friend whos doing a degree in classical guitar and began to realise a lot of things.
i think that in a concert situation when you sit down in front of an audience, fear of failure, or fear of not living up to what you know you can do really well in practice, is the worst thing that brings standards crashing down and technique goes down the pot.
last october i was sitting ready to play a concert. i had a rumba down to a t and was looking forward to trying it out. i sat down and started thinking of all the expectations i have from people watching, then of my own expectations and of my image of how i wanted the concert to go (we all have that, you know, we can picture it being perfect playing, rapturous applause and a bit of duende thrown in for good measure![:)])
my hands were all ready clammy but after all these thoughts and fears rushing through my head i lost all confidence in myself and my technique. notes were fluffed, and i had to improvise with other easier falsetas cos i knew that i wouldnt be able to play the other bit that i had got down so well.
after the rumba i was calm and played a rondena really well and it went down well too. goes to show.
for the future, i know not to think of the expectations around me, which is most difficult for me, and to be confident and just concentrate on the music. i am the worst at having an image of how i want te concert to go and how much i want the audience to enjoy it, thats my big downfall. nerves are inevitable, but fear of failure can be avoided... methinks...[8|]
lucca
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