gj Michelob -> A Judge’s Apology (Jun. 3 2009 15:47:19)
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A Judge’s Apology After reading some of the comments to the initial views and scores issued by the Judges –for the Advanced Competition- I am seized by a regretful visceral rejection for having issued any judgment. 1. Perhaps I should have waited until the last moment and only after viewing all others’ comments, appreciate the crowd’s resentment, and issue a more diplomatic opinion; 2. Or I should have disregarded my whims and simply grade all submissions for what they all really are “great”; Did I forget how sensitive we all are when it comes to the music we share? And how much more about the painstakingly rehearsed and practiced piece submitted by professional musicians… But I made the mistake of taking this too seriously, as when I grade students’ papers, knowing that after all each is only an infinitesimally relative and inconsequential manifestation of what that student can truly do. When Doitsujin asked me to serve as a judge, I inevitably wondered if I am at all qualified. After all, I never was to keen to serve on a bench, and when the opportunity did arise (for the Courthouse., that was) I declined, as I am an advocate, perhaps even a prosecutor, but I am no judge, for I empathically identify with losers and chastised and feel their pain. Inexcusably, I am incapable of taking responsibility for the judgment I am asked to issue. I know I am not above reproach. Who is, after all? When lawyers lose cases in court, naturally blame the court for incompetence, neglect or worse, biased corrupted discrimination. I am not a fine musician. I just spend more time than I can truly afford playing guitar and listening to the great few I worship, Amigo, Nunezs, DeLucia. Moraito….. Tomatito. Yes, Tomatito, the standard for this competition I undoubtedly poorly judged. Yet I judge him too, each time I choose Amigo as the example and musical role-model I wish to imitate. The same instinct guided my scoring. Undoubtedly as Sincere as it was unnecessary. I am sorry if my blind tasting of your work, dear challengers, took Champagne for proletarian beer. You all are awesome and your recordings mesmerizing. Some have had a better hand at this piece, as often certain music is more suitable for one than the other. Your musicianship was not part of my criticism, but I am afraid it inevitably hurt that sensitive soul of fellow musicians on this Foro whom i love dearly..... Sorry amigos, really.
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