ToddK -> RE: **Advanced Challenge Entries** (Jun. 10 2009 1:24:12)
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Everything you were saying and every advice you have given here in all these years has now been proven by the best genuine example This is the statement i was refering to, which i was trying to make within this challenge. Thank you so much for saying that Matic.[:)] Same goes for you Ron. Thank you for that affirmation ive longed for, for so long. I always felt like people never really took what i said very seriously, and always felt, for the most part, written off, simply because my technique was so against the grain. Its a bit frustrating, especially combined with the direct insults to my technique which i, right or wrongly, took very personally. More so though, i really have just always wanted to feel like "Part of the group". Like i "Fit in" here. I think my "raw" and "unsweetened" style of critique was a result of that frustration and feeling like a bit of an "Outcast". I have accomplished my goals thus far, but still have tons of work ahead of me. But i do feel like now, i can at least chime in with a suggestion, or a critique, and feel like i have solid ground from which to speak. I love to play, strictly for the sake, and the joy of playing, but i must admit, getting a little respect, and having my opinions taken a bit more seriously is important to me. I feel like, at least to a certain extent, at this point doing what i did in this challenge, I have earned at least a minimal amount of that respect. I am on level ground with all the players here now, and feel a new sense of freedom of expression. It feels good. I feel like "one of the guys" now. Foolish? Maybe. Petty? likely... but that's just how i am. As braisin as i come off sometimes, im extremely sensative, and take comments to heart. I, just like pretty much everybody on this planet, just want to feel "Accepted". Anyway, i feel good about how the whole thing came out, and look forward to a more joyful and free expirience here. This Foro,and the members are very important to me. I'm so grateful to be a part of it. Thank you.. TK
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